Thursday, November 03, 2005
guess it isn't time to change my blogskin yet? haha. nope. its cos i've got no idea how to change it. wahahahaha... haven't realise i have not been blogging for about, eh, a month. WHOA!!! A MONTH!!! that's a god damn long period of time. hmmm... but this holiday, i have made full use of it. i went to work, went out with friends, some retail therapy here and there... other than that SLACK... it's what i'm best at doing at. no choice. heez...
let's start from this semester now. classes have started, poly students like me, well, maybe all cls people are all ready to pia!!! everyone still seems to be so hardworking. soon, foodcourts will be back to normal, with people studying and hogging to the tables. wal lau, doesn't that leave us no place. SHIT!!! and oops, aren't my friends and i doing the same things to other people. haha. ok, some contradiction here...
seconday schools are having their holidays, fun they go. juniors are really studying for their 'o's, YOU CAN DO IT!!!! besties are working their best, and making decisions to some really important matter. HUIXIAN, just go with your heart, choose what's best for you and i'm sure you won't have the chance to regret it. what ever decision you make, i'll support you always.
monday:
school started, was almost late. damn it! can't afford to be late on the first day, will leave a bad impression, whoa, i rushed and phew, a train that does not need me to change lanes arrive timely. haha. reach school in around 15 minutes time. fast huh??? lesson started, BORING!!! feel like sleeping. plus the biology lecturer was so arrogant lahz. don't really like him, but it's ok. doesn't matter much as long as he does his job well and teach me where i can understand. don't be a second joey soo, i will cry...
tuesday:
no school------------------------------------------------------- had a really bad dream... this dream started, i think abt 9.22. i woke up, look at the clock and went back to sleep. soon, this dream started.
it was all about me running and running, as if we were being punished. i was talking to li hong and soo yin [my poly frens], talking about shopping, as we were running. so tired, so we began to slow down. soon, people caught up with us, they are junhao xiao mei baohui alvin veronica and many other seconday pals [sec 2 classmates]. then, mr. thomas came into the picture, he peep and shouted who ever is the last three shall be punish. the three have to stay back during recess time and run for another ten rounds.
i struggled and struggled, somehow, i lost to li hong by a step. shit! there goes my recess. haiz. the three were me, veronica and junhao [ what a weird combination]. so, we started our punishment, run and run, with chin koon talking to me though, running with me as well. mr. thomas saw it and made him sit on a large leaf in the center of the pond. the pond was around 10 feets for diameter. but the pond seems to be increasing, every second.
next, after we completed our punishment, mr. thomas made us all, the group of people to sit around and he was explaining some really boring stuff. everyone was concentrating. including li hong and soo yin [even the two non-stop chating girls were listening, WHOA, amazing]. it was really BORING!!! only jun hao and me find mr. thomas talking boring. so i look around and saw poor chin koon being punished. the pond was bigger nw, you will have to walk about 10+ steps then you can reach him.
then! i saw something moving inside the pond. it was an alligator!!! OH MY GOD!!! i really freak out. it was moving closer and closer to wards me, i was sweating out in cold sweats by then. finally! i can't tolerate anymore, i told mr. thomas about it. he shove me off by saying it's nothing to be surprise at. then, the alligator suddenly dash into the group of people. everyone stood up and started to scramble off, except me. it went towards mr. thomas and tried to bite him.
somehow, mr. thomas have got the alligator turn and swim back into the pond. before it went back in, it glide past me and glare at me. i stunnned!!! once i recover, i realise chin koon is in the middle of the pond. oh! how! it was all too late. chin koon was shaken off the leaf by the alligator and was somehow struggling with it. the alligator won, obviously, drag chin koon on to the shallower water. i could only watch, i can't do anything to save him. OH MY! chin koon laid there, motionless, eyes close, no blood, no signs of bites. so i was thinking, this chin koon could well be playing a trick on me.
minutes later, i keep calling chin koon, chin koon, chin koon, he didn't reply. i've gt really anxious!!! really very scared. i don't know what am i suppose to do next. i really don't know. the scences of research lab suddenly pop out. DOC. CHAN!!! oh ya, i rush in, scream for him, we ran out, he tried to save chin koon by doing all those medical thing. moments later, he announced to me, chin koon has died few minutes ago. oh god! i cried, doc. chan walked away, sadly. i cried, really. cried and cried.
don't know for how long, then, i was still crying when i remember tiac. oh, i've gt to tell tiac. just now when i was searching for doc. chan, i saw tiac and he even wave hi to me, smiling widely. so i went back into the what seems like a research lab to look for tiac, i ask him out, take him to the beach, break to him the news, and he said,'oh, chin koon you cannot die!!!' [in chinese]. he ran to chin koon, hug his head and cry, real hard. me too. crying beside him. we just keep crying then, for a very very very long time. that is the last scene that ends my dream.
i woke up of fear that whatever that happen might be true. when i wake up, my eyes was watery. my heart was still jumping hard, as if i'm worried, i can't afford to lose chin koon. i'm really scared when i wake up. it was 10.54 then. saw my sis playing computer, then i was relieved, everything was juz a dream. what a dream for me man!!! it is the first of november and this kind of dream.
if anyone reading this entry, and you know what does my dream implies, can tag me. i have never cry for so long, and in this dream, it seems like i have been crying for ages, i'm really heart broke, i guess. everything seems to be a dream except for when chin koon was bitten by the alligator, tiac and me crying. my feelings seems so real. oh, what is happening.
once i wake up, i was still so scared, i quickly msg chin koon. and oh ya, this dream happen on 28 oct, which is [in my dream says] his birthday. but when he reply me, luckily, his birthday is on 6 oct, not 28. PHEW!!! he still reply me saying what, an alligator can't bite him, his skin is too thick le [thats really lame, chin koon]. then i realise, all is just a dream, i can't forget.
so for the rest of the day, i just watch my favourite teevee. from tao xue wei long to a chnl 55 series show that i've missed to some vcds of the vampire series. all day of watching then finally sleep to prepare for wed's school.
wednesday:
went to school as usual, was again, almost late. haha. rush there, just on time, not everyone was here yet. have maths, lunch AND!!! SHOPPING!!! wahahahaha. went to bugis then town then west mall today, spend a real lots money. haha. bought 2 clips, hair ties, notebooks, a bag, some hair conditioner, eye shadow, have haagen-dazs and more things. can't remember... reached home at around 8 pluz lohz. not bad, quite early. as i was waiting for my hair to day, i typed this, now its dry, i've got to sleep. its 2am now, anyway. haha...
what a horrible, scary, weird dream...
f lu t t er ing @ 12:46 AM :)
