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Saturday, February 24, 2007

lemme rants here a little k. its like itp is round the corner, in another 2 days time. thats a drag. horh i hate hate itp. really do. i have no hope for it. ok, maybe only hope is to wish for a company's bus. firstly, i have no little wee bit of interest for electroplating. secondly, the long journey there can just stabs me zillion times. thirdly, i have to walk on a dangerous path form the bus stop to the company. seriously, tell me, what have i done to gotten such bad luck. pheesh~

and to think this is my 4th post of the day. haa, i have too much to update you people le. see, i miss orangyadoration in fact. hees~ shall not let itp matter bother me much anymore. hahahha and i had a weird dream that thurs. two in fact.

i dream of huixian ignoring me!!! when i saw her queueing at some bloody long queue dunno for what, i went over to say hi to her, she ignore me totally. i am so so so sad. really deep down sad. even war war who was beside her say hi so cheerfully to me lohz, but she ignore me like totally. then i saw her mum walking over and i say hi, but still, huixian only look straight as if there is no existence of me...

at that moment, i nearly cried. haa, i know i'm so weak. but hey! its your bestie ignoring you now. try to have that feelings. i think you wil filled a bucket of tears, even more than me norh. anyway, somehow i walked away and went to coffee bean and such to sit down. and i got into a crying mood.

when i started filling tears to the brim, the 04 people came, like lh, eugene, ruth and gl, they surround me and filled me with craps. that i didnt feel like crying anymore. hahaah, such fun time i have with them, see! even loving memories fill my dream. then i laughed and gl called my cell. hahahah~

weird huh? but dreams that i remember will never come true larhs hor? right, bestie? you are the best forever. so this dream tells me that i miss huixian so much currently. when can we meet up? and i love 04 more than anything else. i wish my every moment can be spend with them. hahahah, filled with laughters and joy. ho ho ho~

as for the other dream, forget about it lahs, it give me goosebumps even when i thought of it now. tsk tsk...

hahaha, i found this pic in gl's phone.

fochem nightmare

luckily, i'm awaken from this nightmare already. phew~

and this from kenny's phone...

at fc2

but has no recollection of why and when what happen when we took them. zero memory for this pic.

hmmm, so now i got another problem. should i go ahead with my plan or should i just give it a rest. its like, i promise myself to do this march, during itp. but seems like things changes and so how? still go with the plan? let go? just this few days, i have the thought of going with the plan again. though i have force myself in giving up like a month ago.

but its so sinfully wrong. but feelings are so hard to hide. but its no rest for me if i cant say it out. but the other party will change our friendship, but i wish to settle this once and for all, but i dont wish to hurt anyone, but i am selfish, i dont want to be hurt either, but i just cant. my conscious are better. pheesh~ i shall ponder over it myself now...

ah~ enough of unfun stress, hmmm, i seems to smile everywhere i am, everywhere i go. but well, thats yensiang. and i love myself of how i'm doing now. so i shall resist any influence to change my smiley attitude. heez^^

Labels: dreams, gl, itp

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