Saturday, December 16, 2006
yesternight, i meant thursday night. was studying for trace & trans quiz. ok, i totally dont have the mood for it. cos i'm gg for a musical in the evening and i'm totally excited about it lahz. moreover, the musical is a combination of magics too!!! thats what makes me even more enthu.
as you can see, i got to work that thursday evening too. so, yup, didnt want to study cos i dont have the mood for serious studying. i just wanna have some fun!
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this explains my pathetic face during work
i'm stuck between trace, sleep and musical. anyway, that night when i reached home from work, got everything done, it was 10 pm le and my mum came and talk to me. time passes fast!!! it was 11pm le! oh no~ and i havent started on my revision. i'm so dead meat.
so i thought some fruits would refresh my mind.
apples, grapes, pears 
i choose apples
the pear wasnt what i had a few days ago. few days ago, the pears my mum bought was like $1 for one. it was so huge!!! so SWEET!!! so fufilling. i never like pears till these few months when my mum started buying that kind of pears, i might change my favourite fruits from oranges to pears.
anyway, i had apples and they are so sweet. i cant stand it! its too sweet for my tooth le, will cause tooth decay you see. haiz, after countless slices of apples and 15 mins of serious memorising, i gave up, shitter msged me and i was disturbed. so... i cant resist the temptations to take the mess of unmemorised notes.
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that was when i only started studying 1 elements out of 7 elements.
obviously, i wasnt a very hardworking student. i climbed into my bed, intending to study comfortably. i fall asleep and left 2 elements. copper and nickel, i have disappoint you~ ah, craps... but at least, i resist the temptations to start my computer.
so today, did the quiz, think can pass, haa, cos shitter returned me the 'good luck' i lend him for dota on wednesday. and musical was amazingly FUN!!! waiting for your pics, liangjue or ruth, send me asap. haa~ thanks a lot lot. i'm so tired. i only slept 3 hours cos of the quiz and yet i stayed out till so late. i'm rarely tired in the wee mornings and that is bad for my skins. my mum is complaining, my face is grumbling, my bones are nagging, my mind isnt ticking fast, i have such an exhausted soul~
well, many people are overseas. eugene must be in some japan snoozing away and dripping saliva all over his pillow. lihong & huixian must be in their comfy coaches on their way to cooling genting for shop till drop session and fun taking pics. sara must be on the plane now. see! lots of them are enjoying life, singapore seems boring huh?
ok, i'm even more determined to save up for my long-awaited hong kong trip next year. 
hope i can save the money bahz!
yup, i cant stand people who make use of people just for the extend of their own good. this is bad. and i will feel doubly guilty if i do that for twice straight. even when asking sara to acc me, i feel i'm so bad and i consider a tad long long time before i actually thickened my skin by a wee 0.0005nm. but i wont ask twice. at least i didnt. i am not that thick-skinned yet. haa...
and to think such human beings are actually alive. they borrow money from others and dont return back. dont they know, money lend and return is the best policy to getting another loan next time. i have an uncle who borrows money from my aunt like every month to pay his neccessities.
yesh yesh. he jolly well has a stable job, wife and the only child, his salary isnt enough for him when my dad earns about the same amount but my dad has a wife too, plus THREE 3 children. isnt our situation more pathetic than his. he is really over the limit, out of control. he even HINT my dad for money when he knows our situation so much now, shitter...
remembering the days in band when i used to play only one bar wrong in a concert piece, i will get so pissed with myself and feeling all guilty and bad for dragging the whole band to perform slightly bad. and the time when i practise like craze but in the end, competition, i played a note wrong. lemme tell you, this feeling isnt good. espically when you got a silver and not gold, not in the top form. you would feel as if the whole band has gotten a silver is cos' of i who didnt get the note correct. thats how i feel. have i really drag the band's performance down?
feeling guilty is the most unwanted feeling to have. thick-skinned is so not me. i should learn to be more determined and independent. not relaying on my mum's, not adding to her burden and learn to understand, she has her reasons too. honesty is the best policy~
got to sleep now and refresh back my face...Labels: grumble, random
f lu t t er ing @ 2:34 AM :)
